STOP WHAT YOURE DOING. THERES A KITTY SWIMMING ON YOUR DASH
What are you so afraid of!?
I’m REALLY sorry but it looks like they’re about to rap battle
Growing up, my dad had a rule. “You can’t get a tattoo. If you do, I will make you get it removed. Unless, that is, you join the army and can shoot a seagull in the eye from a mile away, or you have a near-death experience.”
On July 12, 2011, I rode my bicycle to the camp I worked at. On my way home, I rode down a hill, and stopped at the bottom. I looked both ways, and there was no car coming. I started to turn left when I got hit by a car going ~55 miles per hour. I completely shattered the windshield, and when the driver stopped, I was ejected back onto the road. The doctors in the emergency room were absolutely perplexed when I arrived, because they all agreed that I should have died, and they were amazed to release me 4 and a half hours later with only 16 stitches, a concussion, and a chipped tooth. During my recovery, I was angry and confused. A couple if days after my accident, I received cards from my eight year old campers. One of them drew a giant paper crane, and said, “if you fold a thousand paper cranes, you’ll get better”.
Not being able to read, ride a bicycle, or put stress on my body, I cut up an old sudoku puzzle, went on YouTube, and learned how to make a paper crane. By the end of the day, I had a laundry basket full of black and white paper cranes.
I kept making paper cranes, even after I made a thousand, and I ran into a dilemma. What do you do with paper cranes once you’ve made them? A girl in my class had committed suicide the same day I had my accident, and I brought a purple crane to her wake. Her family could not have been happier the moment I presented them with this crane. Something clicked in my head right there. I started giving them to people and hiding them in random places for people to find. I started making art with them, and they became a major part of who I was.
This tattoo is symbolic of my accident, and could not represent me any better.
my mum just shouted “yolo!!” from the kitchen and i heard plates smash
So this is my song “Without You” which was inspired by the movie Moulin Rouge, easily my #1 favorite movie of all time. In Christian/Ewan McGregor’s final moments with Satine/Nicole Kidman, she tells him to go on with his life after she has died, to which he replies “But I can’t go on without you”. which is the reasoning for the title.
I hope you guys also enjoyed the background, as it was some of the most powerful scenes for me in the movie Moulin Rouge that I hoped would attribute to my sound I was going for in this song. In short… THE FEELS. THE FEELS.
This broke my fucking heart
This is why you don’t lie about having mental disorders. It is not a joke.
This broke my heart
this is real ocd, not the people in school getting annoyed when their desk is messy.
Here are some more lovely people I got to be around at playlist live! I don’t have time to write a beautiful essay on how they all are irl so if anyone has any questions just inbox me!
Okay so a lot of people are talking about how they met Dan and Phil and I thought I’d share my story too.
It was Saturday morning and I wore this Sharknado shirt and a red blazer just for the ironic YOLO and so Dan and Phil would laugh because they were in that youtubers react episode. And I met up with my online friend and we were three hours in advance and about 40 people from the front of the line. Keep in mind this was a four hour meetup so we knew we were guaranteed in. All of a sudden the security guards started telling that there was a fire hazard and everyone had to evacuate the building. I didn’t want to lose my place in line so me and my friend went and hid in the bathroom. We came out 5 minutes later and the security had formed a barricade around a group of girls that were to meet Dan and Phil and no one was allowed in. I was extremely upset because they were the main reason I went and I had just been waiting two hours all to be literally shoved by huge guards out of line! I was crushed and everything seemed hopeless. I knew Dan and Phil didn’t walk around because of the mobs of fans and I wasn’t staying in their hotel so I couldn’t even try to catch them in the lobby. I tried three different things on Saturday and nothing worked. I truly believed I would never get to see my heroes. Then on Sunday night, by means I am not allowed to say ;P I got into the hotel lobby that was all top secret! I was talking to another of my favorite youtubers, craigtdillon, when I spotted dan and Phil’s figures. I quickly said goodby to Craig (I had met him 3 time already) ad rushed towards dan and phil as they walked out the door. Then it happened. I heard phil say “where are cat an Joey?? We are supposed to be meeting them for dinner’
I tapped on Dan’s back and said rather quietly “dan?”
He turned around quickly in surprise and looked at me. I was suddenly very embarrassed because I was not looking my best but he then broke out into a huge grin. “Hi! He replied and without me asking pulled me straight into a hug. I was so happy that I just started saying things. After Dan hugged me I went straight to Phil and got a hug from him. Then I said “I’m so glad I met you guys! I lost hope after the security thing happened.” I assumed they had already heard about how crazy it all was but oddly enough both of them looked confused. Dan came closer and urged me to to go on and Phil half confused and half angry said ‘what security thing?’ I explained to them what happened but then a huge crowd of girls found us. Even thought they were all screaming phil still looked me in the eye and dan was giving me his full attention even as girls were brandishing phones and sharpies. After I finished phil said “oh that’s awful! I’m so sorry! I’m so glad we met you!” *btw I had already taken the group selfie*then the other girls pushed me aside and started taking pictures with phil and he kept looking over like he was sorry so when I asked for a picture with him he went straight to me and hugged me. Then I noticed Dan kept looking back and I asked for a selfie really quick and he came over to me too. And before I lost my courage I asked Dan for a hug because I had to go because the girls were crowding me against the wall and security was coming. And then Dan looked surprised that I would actually want a hug from him on my terms and then he blushed and giggled I REPEAT DAN HOWELL GIGGLED and said ‘well of course you can!!!’ And then he bent down and gave me an extra long hug and it was the best hug I have ever had.
Dan smelled so good. Most youtubers didn’t really smell like anything but Dan smelled like angels and chocolate not going to lie. And they weren’t as huge as I imagined. I was surprised Dan was so shy and cutesy while phil was confident and mature. (Lol a girl can dream that Dan was acting nervous because he thought I was cute, right? ;P) an Phil is so like attractive and so honest and down to earth and ahhhh.anyways they are so down to earth and loving and kind to all of their fans and they made everything better. It was great meeting them and even though they probably don’t remember me I’ll remember them forever.
PS their hair and eyes are even better in person
Awww thanks you guys for all the notes. Feel free to inbox me and I can give you more details on how they were and I can tell you about other people I met!!!!
those nerds in high school who ran like this